In the end........

We lose the people we love

You're beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.

It's hard to fabricate lies when you don't want to make someone sad. When you really really like them...but not in that way. You can't just blatantly lie to them and pretend you love them...they're too beautiful for that. The thing is, they're also too beautiful to lie to. Too beautiful for you to hurt because you don't want to hurt them.You don't want to make them cry, to ruin their beauty by making them feel pain. The problem is...you can't not. You have to do one or the other......the pain...or the lies? Which is the best for them? Break their heart now.....or later. Later when they find out you never liked them like that. That when you kissed them you had to try you're hardest not to be disgusted because, yes they were beautiful but they weren't who you wanted. They were perfect but they just didn't have that special something. You don't want them to feel like it was their fault. Like they aren't perfect or beautiful. You want them to know that it's you. You're the one with the issue and you wish, wish that you could love them......but you can't. And it's killing you. You don't want it to be like that. You want to love being kissed by them. You want to lust after them. To give them your heart and soul.....but you simply just can't. You're incapable of feeling like that and it sucks. They're incredibly beautiful so beautiful that it hurts. And you can't hold back, you just have to tell them, you can't not. Because you know, you know deep down that this is for the best. That this is what you need to do and you do it. You don't want to and you despise yourself for it.....but you do it. You can't handle the pain that is shown upon this beautiful person so...you leave but just before you go you say those five dreaded words.....it's not you, it's me.

Eid Mubarak!

Wishing you a very Happy Eid Mubarak.

May the Mercy & Blessing's of the Almighty be with you, your family, and friends during this auspicious Eid Blessings Day and continue to be always, and May Allah (swt) have accepted all our prayers/duas during this blessed month of Ramadan, insha'Allah (God Willing).

May your year ahead continue to be filled with a healthy, wealthy, and prosperity life, and May you have a Joyous and Spirited Eid Mubarak (Blessings) day with all your dear ones, including people of all faiths and humanity, filled with Love, Peace, and Happiness .... Ameen!

Am I the only one who's ever felt this way?

There is no good reason,
I should have to be so alone.
I'm smothered by this emptiness,
I wish I was made of stone.
Like a fool I lent my soul to love,
And It paid me back in change.
God help me;
Am I the only one who's ever felt this way?

A heart that's worn and weathered,
Would know better than to fight.
But I wore mine like a weapon,
Played out love like a crime.
And it wrung me out and strung me out,
And it hung years on my face.
God help me;
Am I the only one who's ever felt this way?

Now my sense of humor needs a break.
I see a shadow in the mirror,
And she's laughing through her tears.
One more smile's all I can fake.

There is a wound inside me,
And it's bleeding like a flood.
There's times when I see a light ahead,
Hope is not enough.
As another night surrounds me,
And It pounds me like a wave.
God help me;
Am I the only one who's ever felt this way? 

Our Friendship

Where did I go wrong
with being your friend
Where did I miss up
Please tell me.

What happened to the friends we used to be
When we would hang out
and do the stuff we both loved 
Oh man do I miss that.

I keep telling myself that maybe 
you'll come back, but what if I'm wrong
I tell myself you don't mean the things
that you tell my friends.

I kept all your secrets
I helped you when I could
I told you stuff that I 
have never told anyone else before.

So where did our friendship go wrong
Why did it have to turn out the way
it did and the way it has
All I want is our friendship back!

Missing Someone Badly.

Now i'm missing someone very badly. No words to describe my feelings. I want to dedicate this song to that person. 

I'll Be Missing You 

by;Puff Daddy

Yeah... this right here (tell me why) 

Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone 

That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out) 

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show 

I laced the track you locked the flow 

So far from hanging on the block of dough 

Notorious, they got to know that! 

Life ain't always what it seems to be 

Words can't express what you mean to me 

Even though you're gone 

We still a team 

Through your family I'll fulfill your dreams 

In the future can't wait to see 

If you'll open up the gates for me 

Reminisce sometime 

The night they took my friend 

Try to black it out but it plays again 

When it's real feelings' hard to conceal 

Can't imagine all the pain I feel 

Give anything to hear half your breath 

I know you still livin' your life after death 

CHORUS: (Faith) 

Every step I take 

Every move I make 

Every single day 

Every time I pray 

I'll be missing you 

Thinking of the day 

When you went away 

What a life to take 

What a bond to break 

I'll be missing you 

(Puff) 

It's kinda hard with you not around 

Know you're in heaven smilin' down 

Watchin' us while we pray for you 

Everyday we pray for you 

Till the day we meet again 

In my heart is where I'll keep you friend 

Memories give me the strength I need to proceed 

Strength I need to believe 

My thoughts,Big, I just can't define 

Wish I could turn back the hands of time 

Us in the 6 

Shop for new clothes and kicks 

You and me taking flicks 

Making hits stages they receive you on 

Still can't believe you're gone 

Give anything to hear half your breath 

I know you still livin' your life after death 

CHORUS: (Faith) 

Every step I take 

Every move I make 

Every single day 

Every time I pray 

I'll be missing you 

Thinking of the day 

When you went away 

What a life to take 

What a bond to break 

I'll be missing you 

Somebody tell me why 

One glad morning 

When this life is over 

I know 

I'll see your face 

CHORUS (112) x4 

Every night I pray 

Every step I take 

Every move I make 

Every single day 

CHORUS: (Faith) 

Every step I take 

Every move I make 

Every single day 

Every time I pray 

I'll be missing you 

Thinking of the day 

When you went away 

What a life to take 

What a bond to break 

I'll be missing you